let’s think
how should i say this

your friend always told me what i wanted to hear
but now i have to think
did he just
…

in that one moment
the moment when i thought we both felt the exact same
were you
…

did you just give me a chance
just so i’d get away after you left?

why
i waited for too long

why would you want someone to treat you like dirt
what the fuck do you tell him

and see
yet
i still would give anything

but
still
is it true?

did you just

lie?

You were on a stage
Several noise machines were droning
You stood, stoic of the others

You pushed your hair back
It was blonde with green ends
I was unsure if it was intentional or not

One strum and you were off
Into the sky with colors and smoke
The others were mesmerized

You flew
Your parka blew in the artificial yet natural breeze
The impact you had on the atmosphere was
Remarkable

Watch the curtains
They make way
For you

“your eyes are all bloodshot”

Impossible
How in the world

The afterparty
You were on the couch, drinking or smoking, I can’t remember which
It was dark

I slowly edged up and all I heard was

“YOU.”

I felt the most warm embrace

And then
In that perfect moment
I longed for what happened next
But only then

Did I wake up

You xylo, you so no fi lo, you so, don go fi, you so fi no, you xylo no, you so, no fi, lo xylo, you so, you xo lo ni fo, oh lo, you so